I can’t survive in the present
My mind always prevents it
I keep moving and that keeps me calm
Till I realize I’m not moving, I’m falling
I have no control over anything at all
I wasn’t always so anxious
I know just how I became this
I can’t carry all of the blame
I was only eighteen when I started
I wish somebody had stopped me
I’m just what I wanted to be
So why don’t I like me
When I was young, I saw that I wasn’t enough
I grew envious of everyone
I learned that I was flawed
I swallowed all of the lies I was told
And bargained my soul away
I used to laugh harder than anyone
I’d get kicked from my classes when I couldn’t stop
I didn’t realize that was my dissent
Against a world that made me feel like I was worthless
Now that I can focus, I have no fight left
I’m just what I wanted to be
So why don’t I like me
I don’t know if living like this is worth it
If there’s anything better, I don’t deserve it
I wouldn’t jump in front of a train
But I’d do this all over again
And it’s just the same action in slow motion
Fuzzy Austin trio follow up their first album in 20 years, released in Spring 2015, with a stomping new EP of noisy rock & roll. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 26, 2016